Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. You've had so much shit happen to you lately and it kills me that I'm to far away to be there for you. I know I get shitty at you sometimes about stupid things but I'm just trying to protect you :)
2. You're such a good friend. Even though you annoy me like the little brother I never had you keep my mind off the shit that gets me down. I know I act indifferent but you're awesome, I hope we'll always be friends.
3. One part of me feels like what we did was a huge mistake, but it was a mistake we had to make. I think we were both trying to convince ourselves there was more there then what there was. I don't want you to feel bad, cause I've already moved on.
4. You're such a good guy. I hate seeing you go through all this hurt. I wish I could go back to that night and somehow stop all that shit from happening even though it had nothing to do with me. I know that you'll realize sooner or later that you're gonna be ok :)
5. I really wish you'd stop stressing so much. I know you're just worried about her, but she's a lot stronger then you give her credit for. You need to stop worrying about everyone else and take some time for YOU!
6. We can go months on end without seeing each other cause of the distance but as soon as we see each other we pick up just where we left off. There's never that awkward moment! You're the funniest person I know!
7. I'm so glad you've finally found a girl that makes you happy! I know you've had a pretty bad run and I don't want to jinx it or anything but she seems perfect! Hopefully I'll get to meet her when I'm down that way soon!
8. I really admire how unique you are! I've never met anyone like you. You are just so much fun to be around I can't imagine anyone not liking you! I miss your "sumo bun" at work! Haha
9. From the moment we started working together I knew we'd be friends. Your smile is contagious! When you revealed to me that you were pregnant I was over the moon. I really think we bonded from that moment. Pretty sure customers thought I was crazy when the saw me singing to your belly, but I didn't care! I look forward to us being friends for a long time :)
10. I must say I do miss you, but I miss the you that doesn't seem to exist anymore. What you did to your own family disgusts me. It's quite sad really because you've turned into exactly what you hated; a bitter, lonely old man. Your father.